Speechless!

Friends have been asking why I haven't posted recently.  Good question.  Is it because I have no opinions worth sharing?  No, that's not it.  Is it because I'm OK with what I see happening in the world around me?  No, definitely that's not it.  What then has made me kind of mute?

Every day I think about what I observe and silently talk to myself in a reaction.  Usually, these days what I have to say to myself isn't a positive interpretation.  I am appalled by what I see pretty much everywhere I look.  And it seems that the trend is downhill for as far as I can see.

So if I write about it I am adding my voice (or scream) to the noise and it won't make a difference, so why bother?  That's not a pessimistic outlook, its worse than that.  It is cynicism.  And I realize that being a cynic, and talking about it, is not helpful - either to me or to anyone who may be listening.

So I keep it to myself.  I choose to be speechless.  Not something I'm proud of, by the way.  But in copping to it now I am taking a positive step, more in keeping with my commitment to telling the truth as I see it rather than surrendering to the forces that cause me to be speechless.